When I was Skyping with my Dad one night, I complained to him about the lack of time. And he replied to me, “You are short of time because you waste precious minutes on complaints and anxiety.”
Immediately I recognized that, no matter how full your schedule is, if you try really hard, you can always do something more.
Three years ago, I came to RHP. With much curiosity and passion in mind, I realized there are so many differences between school in China and Rolling Hills Prep. Instead of going home at 8pm after school in China, here I am dismissed at 3:30 every day and then do whatever I like. However, more time away from studying led to my indolence and eventually to procrastination. During my freshman year, I could always finish my homework in thirty minutes. Because of that, I put off doing my homework until Sunday night. That strategy may have worked for me for the first two years, but as my classes got harder, I felt overstressed, especially when I could not balance the class work and college applications due to the lack of time.
This year procrastination has really caused me anxiety. I applied to more than ten colleges, but as I didn’t manage my time properly, everything was due at the same time. With four days to go, I had five essays to start on. Meanwhile, I also had my big English paper to write. With all the anxiety in mind, I had no idea how to even finish my application. The closer to the deadline, the more disordered my mind became. I regretted not starting earlier.
Lack of time is just the excuse for my negligence of every single minute. And I believe that the line that separates success and failure can be expressed in five words, “There is not enough time.” In fact, I do have the same number of hours per day as Albert Einstein and Thomas Jefferson did. But I have never touched upon the real meaning of life to seize and enjoy every minute. Time is the most valuable of all our possessions; once I make full use of every moment, I believe my worries will be gradually be cut down to nothing. Spending time on complaining solves nothing.
It is similar to an experiment about filling the jar. If you place a dozen fist-sized rocks and a bucket of gravel into a jar, there is still space for sand and water between the rock and gravel.
Whenever I feel the temptation to procrastinate in the future, I will tell myself, “Seize the day, make every moment count.”